To Brandon

Hello Brandon, this is Anonymous. We have spent much time and effort looking for you in the hopes that you would read this.

We are attempting to save you from a doctrine that your mother is forcing upon you. We are trying to save you from the idea that because you are male, you are going to grow up to be a rapist, that because you were born with a penis that you are unworthy of ever even looking at a woman because it might be considered rape.

We, Anonymous, are just like you Brandon, that’s why we are trying to find you. We never leave a comrade behind. We are trying at all cost to reveal to you the true nature of your mother’s fanatical beliefs so that you can no longer be corrupted by her ideals. In the hopes that you will grow up to be a normal, well rounded individual we must first show you what your “righteous” mother thinks of you.

The following is a post on her blog in which she posts under the handle Biting Beaver.

“Several years ago my accountability program found that the computer had been accessing pornography. Turns out it was my middle son. To date he has been ‘caught’ accessing pornography many times since then. He was 13 I think when this started.

I banned him from the computer, but after a few months I would allow him to be on it for short periods of time. Each and every single time my son would access pornography within days (and sometimes hours) of being allowed back online. He was aware that he would be caught because the computers are monitored but he chose to do it anyway.

Most recently my youngest son allowed my middle son to play with his PSP. Brandon (the middle child) used it to immediately access pornography online. The child is now banned from computers, video games and so forth. I’ve talked until I’m blue in the face, I’ve grown angry and yelled, I’ve cried when I was alone and when I was in front of him. I’ve had him read Dworkin, my site, and other places (namely OAG’s site) and I still can’t unseat this problem. He can recite feminist literature all day long, he can understand the tenets, the ideas behind it, how it links together but he will not allow this knowledge to stand in the way of his porn use.

I don’t think I’m looking for advice (I’ve tried everything I could think of so far) but more a place to simply be sad. I can clearly see why he’s looking at pornography, I’ve figured all that out readily enough, but I can’t seem to make it stop.

“I know, that as soon as my child leaves my home and moves into his own place that he will be looking at porn immediately. I know that I am raising a problem for women. I know that this child will one day grow and will fully absorb the messages that porn sends to men. I know that my child masturbates to degradation of my people (when I use that phrase I mean womyn) and that with every orgasm he will further solidify his own hatred of and superiority over, women.

I know that there will likely come a day where my son coerces a young woman into sex (rape) and there isn’t a damned thing I can do about it. I look into the eyes of my son and they still sparkle like they did when he was a baby, but he’s not a baby anymore, he’s growing into a man and that man will have trained himself to degrade women before he leaves my home.

As a radical feminist who puts women first I cannot begin to determine what I should do with regards to this issue. My heart breaks because there is nothing I can do to protect the womyn he will come into contact with.

I have three boys. One of them is lost to me and as a mother and a radical womyn this breaks my heart in a way I can scarcely express. I don’t know if it says something terrible about me, but you know what haunts me late at night? More than anything else? I know, in my heart of hearts that, knowing what I know now, if I had it to do over again I would have had that abortion.

I also find myself blaming myself over and over again, even though that radical womyn inside of me stands up and yells that I’m placing blame in the wrong place. I’m not sure what I intended to say with this message. I began writing it this morning and put it away again and finally decided to finish it this evening. I think that maybe I just wanted to share, I keep trying with Brandon and I keep failing. He simply doesn’t care. When he wants to jerk off, everything goes right out the window.”

But he is not and the way he treats his grandmother, his sister, his grandmother, and myself make me hate myself for not pouring him down the sink at Planned Parenthood or grabbing a rusty coathanger and doing the job myself even if it killed me.” –BitingBeaver.

This is how she feels about her own son, her own flesh and blood. Anonymous will not let this stand. You must not let this stand. We have waged a war across the internet to bring this message to you, to tell you to keep fighting. Do not grow up believing that your mother is right and that men are inferior, or that you will only be a rapist, or that you are a bad person because of your actions. Anonymous believes in you, Brandon. We fight for you so that you can grow up and fight for what is right, not what is fanatical.

Sincerely,
~~ The Anonymous Legion.